Recently optimistic.

oh i know the next thing that i am so yearning for now, no this is not enough. but this time is not the same because i have no other choice but to sit by Forced Patience with a grimace all the way across my face. perhaps i could trick that grimace to a grin and wait until i am ready to begin on that new stage with the red red velvet curtains, so deep and thick enough to catch the flood of lights above and never let them through..only dark and fumbling confusion behind those curtains when they close for the moment's end. no, i shall sit in the dark waiting for the interlude to pass. i mustn't want to grow ahead of myself yet. but i talked to him about it. i talk to him a lot about the future, i ask my man a lot about the future and what he wants, and i tell him what i want. we both know that these talkedabout futures may choose to stay two; it is a seeable possibility that these futures may choose to stay one - with that, we can only hold on to Patience by its flagging costume tails, and wait, and see. i cannot wait to see what is hiding behind Patience, yet i would rather not shoot my hopes too high for the present time. yes, we'll see how this one plays out